Lady's update

Thank You Lord for listening to my prayers.
Today she's much better than when I found her on my badroom floor 6 days ago and I can smile again. The vet said that it was an infection, most likely because of all the dust from the wall scrapping that is quite harmful. The eye iritation became worst when Lady scratch her eyes and it became my nightmare. Imagine my feeling seeing her like that, I know she's in a lot of pain, she won't eat, her head had a ball like shape rather than a dog's head, her right eye was very red and swollen too that it couldn't close, her left eye couldn't open. It just heart breaking. All my family members who came to my room to look at her suddenly had their 'baby talking style' mode on. Kinda funny now that I think of it

That Saturday evening when I got back from church, her right eye & head had swollen up and by Sunday morning it got worst. We took her to the vet (damn vet could have used some attitude adjustment btw...) and she just seems to get even worst. By Monday morning her head had swollen up so much so that even the left eye couldn't open much. We called the vet and she told us to put some ice around the swollen eyes. We did and lady seems to be much comfortable. But it resulted into another huge probs, something pop up on her right eyelid and it bernanah (too lazy to look it up in english..sorry) . It oozes out from inside the eye too. Another visit to the vet, they cleaned it up and it left a hole that she ended up with 4 stiches!! Could my heart break any deeper??!! Today, the swell almost died out, only the area with the stiches looks very red and swollen a little and kinda smell now that I think of it, coz liquid like bllod still coming out regularly from her eye. My poor poor baby. If I said that I din't like the on-going renovation in the house back then, I hate it so much now.

For 3 nights i didn't sleep, coz she has to be watch or she'll do more harm to herself. Day time is quite ok coz my mom would take turn and i can have some shut eyes. Do I need to go to such length? I do actually, for my own sanity and for her, coz she's my responsibility ans she obviously needs me. Don't believe me? I gave you an example, whenever i went out of the room she just won't sleep. Ask my mom and Maylee. Sometimes when the pain is too much for her I had to carry her on my lap and she then fall asleep, which was no probs to me coz i do that to her all the time but this time, she had that "protective collar" around her neck to prevent her to scartch her eyes, and it's just impossible.Another funny thing, I guess, is that i discover that when you're very very sleepy, you'll take any position and space available as long as you can rest your head and eyes! My bed has become Lady's sick bed and sometimes they're just not enough space left for me. I've been asked a couple of times when they saw Lady's sleeping position, "hmm,where do you sleep?" my answer, "I don't."

Another thing reason which made me still don't sleep much is because of the liquid like blood
that still continuing coming out of her eyes, it needs to be clean immidiatelly or the poor dog won't be able to open her eye. I'm still worried about this liquid thing, are they supposed to be like that? And i think her eye become red again. Was it something that we did? I'm going to call the vet in the morning and if tomorrow she still like that, i guess another visit is still necessary. Call me paranoid, see if I care.

I've cried a lot in the first few days of her being sick, it's just that i felt so guilty (for letting things like that happened to her), confused of what's is her sickness, hopeless coz i can't seems to do anything to help her and i'm so so scared of losing her. Hmm, I think too many people saw me crying back then... thank goodness they're my own people so they won't spread the news of how ugly i look *_^ (Gomene MayLee if i scared you..on both account ^_^)
I think I'm blabbing. Am I making any sense? ohh screw it...

My discovery during the nights being awake:
-Sunset Beach is still on Indosiar.
-They play Mandarin movies the craziest hour like 2 or 3 am! Why?
-'Sweet Lemon' is on Phoenix channel, good chance 2 judge if its any good, then i'll buy it.
-I can stay awake longer than I had thought i would be. Don't ask how I look though, scary I think .. *_^
-Lack of sleep makes you less patience but you won't snapped up so easily. Guess too tired too get angry.. ... LOL
-For a Coffee Addict like me, drinking coffee in hope to stay awake..? does not help a bit. Needs something stronger, and i just go with everything for the sake of staying awake.. watch parts of MC & XM in MG2 again! Playing David Tao vcd karaoke, and my fave: watch anything Crocodile Hunter's related!! (Crocodile hunter; Croc' file; Croc' Diaries) ^_^ LOL

bu Jay... what did "TIME" says about Jay? I saw it on the news today too (in one of the chines tv). Did u buy the B* Asia w/the Energy vcd? Can I have a copy too pleaseee? Has the new CD out in Ambassador? tadinya gue mau besok, i mean today..lunch time, gantian ama nyokap & pergi ke ambassador, gila.. hampir seminggu dikamar!!, ternyata nyokap mau pergi besok, si i can't coz no one to takes care of lady. boohoo

MayLee I saw LP new MV today!! Where I Belong. OMGosh..finally.. new stuff. I'm so excited!! sounds very nice.. and Mr.Hahn still do the MV (not animated). New stuff from two of my fave bands, Linkin Park & Stereophonics. Aaahhh. ^_^