tired....

not complaining coz i got paid for this.. just stating the fact. I'm all tired out. maybe coz i'm new in all this, maybe coz i haven't been taking care of my body stamina.. then the stress..
[maya-chan gomen ne for shouting at you & arguing with you quite a lot these days ^__^ ]
can't wait for the holidays where i can stay up till well over midnight and sleep in 'till noon, where i can just stay at home and be with my dogs, and CLEAN MY ROOM! Gosh, the state of my room these days.. not a pretty sight! and truthfully, when your room is dirty or messy.. it does effected your performances daily.

indonesidan mode saking malesnya...

dah beberapa hari ini, di kantor lagi kutak katik rombak sillabus.. i hope it'll work out okay for the students, and i hope i'll be the genki sensei again... kyaaa i want Sho-kun by my side!! he's just so good with kids.. in real life and as Suzuki Taiyo sensei ^___^ *kissu Sho.. just coz i wanna to*

thank goodness that it all goes in a rather relax way.. [hmm kayaknya tadi pengen ngomong pake bahasa ibu.. kok ya balek lagi ke bahasa bule.. hehehe] nggak kayak kemaren kemaren, training and sharing blah blah yang bikin gue ngantuk abis dan suntuks! man...
one more day and after that.. libuuuur!! ntah deh masuk lagi ntar bakal disuruh kerjain apa lagi yg aneh2... just as long as its not presentation, coz i just loathe speaking in public :p i'll leave that to Sho the blabber mouth *chuu chuu bibir dower nan sexy*

tadi iseng iseng ke cdjapan and yeasia [Vic.. Wish udah ada kok di list YA] and darn it!! ternyata Wish [Arashi new single] bonus nya cuma extra lagu.. hiks padahal gue ngarepin dvd pv kayak seblum2 nya...

trus trus... Mika Nakashima keluarin album baru and dvd juga kyaaaaaaaaaa
then then... ada Dragon Ash... cd album baru juga!! kyaaaa gue mau banget..!! must buy! must buy! ^___^

udah aah, bingung mau ngapain saking sumpeknya... mau pulang aja terusin baca Harry Potter 6 [kyaaaa gue lebih suka Book 6 dari pada Book 5, belom lagi impian gue tercapai... Ron-Hermione... kyaaaaa kawaiiiii and a lot of cool stuff. darn good this book is.]
I love the fact that i'm back being a book worm [well, at least untuk saat ini..] gue dah lagi kesulitan untuk bisa konsen baca buku tebel akhir2 ini.. which is a darn shame coz i love books and i love to read more than anything.. mudah2an abis HarPot gue bisa lanjut baca buku2 tebal lain nya ^__^

jya minna... have a nice day & weekends.. be safe now..

ps. I've just realized that i've used the word "darn" quite a lot :p

wishes do come true ^__^


last saturday, after spending the whole morning & noon dealing with the dogs.. at around 4pm i finally ready to go to the gath, and just my luck, not even 5 minutes i walked out of the house, it rained so hard & the wind blew harshly that i spent my first few minutes in the cab drying my legs with the limited tissue that i had! so glad i wore a skirt ^__^

since tanaka no okusan had already informed me which magazines available in Kinokuniya, i went there first when i arrived at PI coz Ki-chan wanted the Duet 10 [Arashi again on the cover *yay*]. And it must be the start of my lucky day that I also found the Wink Up 8 [cover Arashi] that i've been looking for!

When all the minna finally together @ food court its near "Break" time for the minna who's Fasting, so all of us who didn't fast also got our dinner. Hmm.. i think we all ate some kind of japanese style dinner that night, except of course for Mami who couldn't ^__*

I was just listening to the peeps talking with one of my hand supporting my chin and already started to get a little blanky when suddenly a red paper bag decorated with 3 blue butterfly was pushed in front of me. Some of the peeps said "happy birthday" so then i knew that it was my birthday purezento.

Little did i know that the content gonna make me so speechless! The peeps got together and literally fulfilled my birthday wish list! They got me Harry Potter Book 6 & Arashi Goto picbook. OHMYGOSH!! minna san.... hounto ni doumo arigatou gozaimasu... I was really really didn't expect that!

I mean, the reason that birthday wish was up in the first place was because Endah was threatening to give me a bunch of stuff that opposite me! Like Akajin poster and stuff [N'dah.. N'dah.. orang2 kantor lo tu rada jail deh.. jangan terlalu di ikutin yah.. hehehe] So i just wrote down what i desire to have and not hoping much because they're all pretty expensive stuff, plus a couple not even sold in jakarta ^__^

Minna... I've heard bits and pieces of the "behind the scene" story how my goody bag came about.. and to me personally, your effort & determination to get me those things last saturday worth so much more than you guys can imagine. I 'm so touched that yo guys went all that far.. Your friendship means so much to me.. so from the very deepest of my heart I really thank you for thinking of me. *group hugs*

to Lina-chan,Endah, Cicha darlin & Matsuditi... here's my version.. ^__^


7 Things about ME [that's actually not really important but fun to know... wakakakaka]

7 things that scare the hell outta me
1. worms and its kinds & cockroaches! .... i scream in an instant seeing even a glimpse of 'em on telly!
2. total darkness... [makes me unable to breathe!]
3. something happen to one of my pet dogs [very heart wrentching]
4. being alone in an unfamiliar territory
5. losing a good friend
6. being mis-understood
7. Sho got married ^__^

7 things/people I love most
1. my pet dogs [I don't mention family or friends coz i feel that it just naturally come with the territory.. y'know being part of the family and being a good friend is all about]
2. my room!
3. SHO SAKURAI
4. kazunari ninomiya
5. my 'freedom' [to choose my own stuff, be with whomever, do whatever, like whatever etc etc]
6. books books and Harry Potter
7. taking pics of my friends without them realizing it

7 important stuff in my room
1. air con & comfy bed!
2. my dog Lady
3. my players [dvd, vcd, cd etc etc]
4. my books
5. my computer
6. my joniz & non joniz dvd/vcd/cd/mags & stuff
7. my secret *__^

7 random facts about me...
1. I'm not very good handling new stuff or meeting new people
2. I LOVE my friends
3. I'm a Shokunholic
4. I have very little clue about Indonesian entertainment
5. I love collecting books... my dream is to have my own "library" when i got my own house
6. ... and a prayer room.
7. I once didn't eat red meat for 3 years as part of being "animal rights" supporters


7 things I plan to do before i kick the bucket..
1. cuddling up in front of a fire place in a private villa in Hokaido at winter time with Sho Sakurai
2. married to Sho Sakurai
3. have a child or two or even a dozen with Sho Sakurai
4. go to Greece and visit the Orthodox monastery with Sho Sakurai
5. set up a very comfy house with Sho Sakurai
6. growing old with Sho Sakurai
7. and if I can't do all of the above with Sho Sakurai... then Nino will do... bwuahahahahahahahahahaha or maybe MatsuJun.. or Dave Tao? okay okay... Lee Hom will do... hahahahahaha

7 things that I can do.
1. cook tuna fettucini that for some reason my friends like so much ^__^
2. cross-stich [nyulam gitu lho..]
3. spoilt my pet dogs
4. making one of those coupling pics thingy with photoshops
5. watch tv or read book all day long... hehehehe
6. sing quite decently... i guess
7. hmm... talk for hours on the phone with the right people.. LOL

7 things I can't do
1. cook a normal indonesian food [why oh why do they use so many different spices!]
2. spend a day without music or telly!
3. eat food with chilly on them
4. openly being angry to the person i'm angry with
5. play any sport properly
6. driving a car or a bike
7. diet [like they always say.. diet start tomorrow... always! ^__^ ]


7 things I say the most
1. "Lady... stop it!"
2. "Draco!... awas ya!"
3. eeeeehh...!!
4. gitu lho...
5. baka....
6. hehehehe
7. BWUAHAHAHAHA

7 celeb crushes
1. Sho Sakurai [everything i wanted in a guy i find in him!]
2. Christian Bale [adore him so much]
3. Orlando Bloom [gorgeous beyond words]
4. David Tao [love]
5. Kazunari Ninomiya [first 'arashi' love]
6. Shun Oguri [adorable]
7. Stephen Fung [old crush that i still find irresistable]

7 People who have to do this...
1. Ki-chan
2. Omaya
3. Sakurai Dewi
4. Junko-chan
5. Yui-chan
6. Sita-myKKidsenpai-chan
7. Bitchy Tanaka, Matsuditi, Cicha Darlin, Pandasaorus Kamenikus... if they haven't already done it.


and since i've got nothing better to do yesterday.. i came up with this:

7 artists/CDs that you never thought i have in my collection..
1. complete collection of David Tao ^__^
2. Dragon Ash [sooo excited when i saw a member of DA was in sho solo perfm vid in Izaa concert!!]
3. my Classical CD collection [i love Chopin... ^__*]
4. Padi & Sheila on 7
5. Christina Aguilera & Hillary Duff! hahahaha
6. Linkin Park
7. Louis Armstrong

7 unhealthy food/drinks that you can't live without
1. chocolate
2. coffee
3. potato crisp
4. french fries
5. pepsi
6. ice cream
7. lots and lots of candy ^__^

7 things that you love but some of your friends think otherwise
1. soya milk
2. coffee
3. arashi
4. david tao
5. Lady on my bed
6. my love for japanese related stuff
7. eating without a drop of chilly in sight ^__^

7 things that you usually always find in my bag
1. my wallet... obviously.
2. my HP/mobile-phone/cell-phone/keitai
3. my little make up bag that has my "make up", a few medicines, band aid, safety pins & sewing kit ^__^
4. tissues
5. pen, little note pad & scissors
6. umbrella
7. candy

7 things i hate before midday
1. waking up early [i'm a night person by birth ^__^]
2. my mom's yelling for something or waking us up
3. the dogs barking soooo loud while i'm still in bed
4. waiting for the bathroom when you're already late [man.. i so want my own bathroom!]
5. the bus is late and when its finally came.. its already packed.
6. people smoking in the bus when you have just washed your hair!!
7. when its only 10am and you're already hungry LOL


and here's our pic from the last adventure in so-jong! hahahaha



me endah & dita

Birthday Thoughts


feel just like any other day really... except for the non-stop SMS & call that came in during that 24 hours period and even extended to the next day ^__^ I mean really, once you hit 25 and then you still single after that... there's just something you do take for granted.. for me.. my age. I think even when I reached 20.. age was nothing but numbers, and once you're legal in front of the law.. that's it. nothing much..

coz at the time i guess i'm more concern about finding who i really am and what i wanna be.. it took me quite a while.. years in fact of "soul searching" to come to the point of where i am today. other people might think little about it or never thought about it at all, but it was quite a big thing for me.. y'know, to be able to be happy for just being me. i myself never realize that it was important for my peace of mind until i finally got it.

its just something that no amount of money could buy. and its amazing how that "little thing" could change your whole perspective. I'm more confident, more satisfied and just all around happy. I know who i am, i know what i need and don't need, and if other people think otherwise.. i could've care less.

i know people think its very odd of me that in my age i don't think much of finding a boyfriend or husband... the things is, i do want all those "my own family" thing but i don't want to sacrife my own happiness or peace just to get that. It might sounds silly but I've been through quite a long road to reached this point, and i'm not willing to let that go just for the sake of having a boyfriend, plus i don't like that short time period relationship even for just "testing the water". I'm a loyal person, and when i into a relationship, I'm in it for the long term and i give myself 100% in it. conceited? i think not.

Same thing with friends, every relationship is a two-way thing. And where i stand today, when I don't see the other person making any some kind of effort to keep the relationship.. then I stopped making it mine also. I'm just too tired to do it all by myself. I believe that I deserve more, and some other friend could use or need my attention more. So.. like in my last interview she asked me what is my condition or state of mind right now... the first thing that i said to her was, I'm happy.
Then she asked again what do I mean? I said, I'm happy... I'm content being where I am at least for today. It might not be much to other people but I'm happy being who I am, knowing that for a fact that my family loves me & the friends that I have really do care & love me for me.

and that I'm lucky coz compare to other people I have things such as a roof over my head & food on the table, and even more. So in one short simple sentence.. I'm happy and I'm forever thanking God for blessing me with this happiness.

and... I thank you too ^__^


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Btw.. one thing that I found soo hilarious was when 4-5 peeps asked me... so what are you gonna do tonight? Having a "wild" party? when i asked them why they asked me that, they said... well, sho gitu lho..! hahahahaha why oh why do you ask me that minna?? of course I'm having a very wild party with sho! hahahahaha *nuts*



yume no sekai...

I was already asleep before the clock hit midnight... but then Hika-kun woke me up saying that there's a birthday message from Mommy Juju for me. Then when he's back in his room, Sho came and surprised me with.... well, its our secret, needless to say we have our own little wild party that night ^__*

The next day was the usual day except that Junno, Jimmy & Hika prepared a surprised breakfast for me and of course the whole family. It was very sweet of them although I'm quite confuse of what excatly they're cooking... there's friend rice, miso soup & pancakes! Although it was surprisingly good to eat all of them, one by one of course not altogether. I guess its a breakfast that representing this family.. unlikely combination but mix together.. and we're good! although i could use with less the mess they make! those boys must have use every single kitchen utensils available, and stuff seems to be all over the kitchen. thank goodness Sho make sure they do the clean up too... poor boys ^__^

Some flowers were arriving while we're having our breakfast, from Papi Shigeru, my Domoto brothers, Taichi & Yabu, and even my adorable nephew Kohei made the long distance phone call to wish me a quick happy birthday before he has to quickly run for his morning class... I didn't noticed it at first, but when I'm ready to head out for the office, the boys & Sho still busy cleaning the kitchen instead of going to rehearsals or whatever. Turned out Mr. johnny gave them all a day off as my birthday present! Whooaaa... what a surprise! Hmm.. must remember to thank that old man later, but i'm not inviting him over! [sorry johnny-san ^___^]

The dinner party was wonderfully gorgeous! The Sakurai Palace turned out beautiful, for once, white lily & white roses everywhere.. hmmmm kinda reminds me of my wedding day.. Everybody was there.. even my sis and her tomoya baby, and my other sis & mabo! i was totally surprised. i asked them if they're back from korea for good, they said it was only for my birthday plus Junko-chan want to see how her son is doing. Well, I could see that Hika-kun was very happy to see his mommy again. But tomoya baby didn't look too happy.. i guess he found out about his wife quest for that HongKong guy. Mabo seems to be okay too, or maybe because of the constant beer in his hand?

Other than that, most people looks like they're enjoying them self and the BBQ, Sho made the pool area look gorgeous with attaching little lights on the bushes that surrrounding the pool area, and he even puts some candles to flaots in the swimming pool, which turned out to be good thing, coz at a point the youngsters thought it was a brilliant idea to have a night swim after Maru-kun slipped in to the pool, although he said Yabu & Hikaru pushed him! And to make it worst, Papi Shigeru & Kang BunBun join in in the idea! Thank goodness Sho bring order to the what might have been a chaotic time. I can't afford to get all those little kids sick now can I.. especially when Johnny-san has been most kind and Hikaru's mom in town!

After every little bits of food available is vanished from the table [i still wonder how those kids and even my brothers managed to keep their weight in check with the amounts of food they're consume everyday... so far only me & sho had the problem keeping our weights down... hmmmmm] The girls and I do the last bits of cleaning after the hired servants for the party went home. It was kinda nice to able to chat & just share our daily life with my sisters again.. its been a while since the last time we did this.

And the next day, as part of my present, Sho took me for a romantic getaway... Can't tell you all the details though.. let's just say that it was very romantic and "W" from time to time. Lets hope after this Hika's & Sho's wish to have another child in the house is fulfilled!

We got home to an empty house. Turned out Jimmy still want to stay an extra night in Tanaka's house since he still doing a project or something with Yabu-kun. Hika-kun still enjoying his days with his mommy Juju, and Junno also still want to hang around with his brother Koichi. Oh well... I guess the party continue for Sho & I... a very very.. very nice birthday indeed! I hope next year I won't be too busy with a little baby to have another "nice" birthday ^______^


[dou?? cukup insane kan...? hahahahahahaha now go away and don't bother me again about my wild birthday party okay... ......... ................... ...........................

*drag sho to the master bedroom*

hahahahahaha the insanity continue......!!]

Sankyu......


minna san... i feel so happy & blessed that so many of you actually took the time to send me birthday wishes ^___^ i've received like non-stop B-day SMS from even before midnight to the next day after my b-day! ureshiii na.... I feel so loved *terharu biru.... hahahahahaha*

thank you so much dear friends.... and because its the fasting month... i'm afraid y'all just have to wait for the Tuna Fettucini Fiesta ^___^ abis lebaran yah... I promise I'll cook 'em for you ^__^ sabar yah...

I've got lots to say... buat kinda confuse in writing a proper entry and chatting at the same time hihihihi... so... once again... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR WISHES AND PRAY for little ol' me. I trully appreciates it. Love you... and God bless you ...

look at all this lovely banners ^__^

from Endah.. & another one in her blog.


from Matsuditi with a lovely msg.


from Cicha


from Vic


from Tia... kawaii.. gue mau pic nyaaaa



sankyuuu ne minna.. ^__^

Flash Back...

since this is still my [online] journal... i still like to keep records on my so called life ^__^



Friday, 30th September 2005

What a day. My temper & mood swing up and down all day. I hate going out in such a short time available with no plan. But since its involve a girl name Qisthy.. you can't really plan your day, coz that girl love to change her own plan fastest than your eyes can blink *kaburr dari Ki-chan.... hehehehe*

I finally went out as soon as the latest rain stopped. Went to PI to check out on some magz and that DAMN demo people made the plaza closed their main doors! So had to come in from the side door and then to make it worse, I had to go out from the back door [where the cars usually enter]. I hate those protesters...

Anyway, Maya already arrived in Glodok when i got there and about 15-20 minutes later Qisthy finally joined us. We left Glodok around 5pm after a quick brunch at KFC [padahal harusnya pada takut bird flu kan yah? dasar orang2 sinting! hehehe] I guessed we're already in a certain condition that we blank out most of the time, we changed our next destinaton by the minutes; we missed our bus stop etc etc So then Qisthy & I decided to go to PS to avoid the traffic jam & so that we wouldn't have to go there in next the morning, Maya went home coz she has family thing to attend.

We got rained down we got to PS and my stupid umbrella took a while to properly open up.. damn cheap umbrella! ^__^ Check out some magazines where I found quite a high stack of the Fineboy 2005 Autumn Edition with Sho Sakurai on the cover!! kyaaaaaaaaaaaa Qisthy also did some shopping.. including a couple of stuff for my birthday! hahahahaha arigatoooo Ki-chaaaaan... *mwak mwaks mwaks* Its gotta be something when your friend bought you your birthday pressie right in front of your nose! I loved that moment.. coz we're kinda silly.. she bought me something for my body & 'soul' ^_______^

We totally forgot the time and so when we quequed outside for a cab, there wasn't any! I guess its a mix of the gas situation, the rain and other unfortunate stuff. After 10-15 minutes we walked to RatPlaz, maybe we got more chance for a cab there. But nooooooooooooo.. another 10 minutes without a single cab, so we took the busway and its already after 9pm! Got off @ Karet and we got into the same situation! Not a single cab! We walked yet again to the back of Sahid hotel area and just hoping that the angkot still availabe... thank God they are! Although Ki-chan bumped her head on the way in hehehehe

Totally burned out when we got home! The last walk, we pretty much dragged our feet !! But i still had to copied some CDs for tomorrow [pletak pletak Dita yang nggak jadi dateng!] Finally sleep at around 4am when all is finished. Thank God we didn't have to meet Endah before noon.


Saturday.

Another adventure @ Papaya... although we didn't buy much food this time, only some stuff @ Daisho, i think the giggling was more fun ^__* dunno why silly stuff always happened when we got together.

Arrived a little bit late @ Planggi for Vicky's bday lunch...gomen ya Vic.. hehehe After that we went upstairs to the foodcourt where the weekly IJ gath reached record high of something like 21 people? newbies and even out of towners came... sugoii na.. But all fun must came to an end sometimes... and I had to go back home alone, coz mamayako had to go with Putri & Ipeh since they're staying over her house that night.

Sunday

Woke up at 4 am! Had a day trip to Bandung today with the bosses & my fellow sensei. Attend the opening Bandung branch for an hor or two, then we head out to the factory outlet. The bosses bought us matching polo shirt which we had no clue for what... and I managed to sneak around and got myself a couple of Tee.. one that was inspired by the thought of.. "hmmm this looks like something that Sho would wear" Yup! I got that Shokunholic virus fairly high these days weeks months..... doesn't look like there's any cure for this ^__^ *slap Sho and then kiss him senseless* hahahahahaha

Got a little traffic jam on the way back home to Jakarta.. a tomato truck got into some kind of trouble... Reached home at dawn & just had no energy left... darn it.. work day the next day too.... oh well...

Just a quick post...


must do something about myself, i can't get out of my daily tiredness ever since my training began.. this can't go on, must be my genki self again! hahahahaha

anyway.. just wanna say to Qisthy, Maya, Dewi, Endah, Sita, Celly, Dianne, Putri, Vicky, Tia, Dita, Yeni, Nova, and the rest of my moeslim friends...

May you have the right spirits, the right energy, set of mind & heart during this Ramadhan month. Hope you'll go through the Fasting month without any glitch! ^__^

Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah Puasa ya minna...