Emotionally drained...


if the other day i said that my patience level concerning this thing is very low... now, i'm not sure if i still have any! That B**** just a total nightmare.. to say the least, and i'm not putting up with anything anymore!

y'know what.. setelah semua kejadian ini.. gue dah ndak mikir deh mereka mandang gw kayak apa, mau nggak di libatin, nggak di inform etc etc etc I DON'T CARE! Yang namanya gue dah kecewa, sedih, malu, marah dll... udah deh lupain. Gw dah ngalah banget dan nurut masih senyum ini dan itu dan ngikutin semua nya hanya karena gue pikir gue ndak mau ini keluarga tambah berantakan, gue masih mikir he's my own blood brother, gue masih mikirin nyokap and especially bokap gue.. tapi apa mereka care? do they have any clue? do they even THINK for a second about other people?? common courtesy and what's right??

orang yand sakit ada yang lebih parah dari itu, gue sendiri punya maag yang cukup parah so YOU DON'T HAVE TO ACT.. gue tau lo cuma pura2.. dan lagian kalo emang lo niat semua nya pasti bisa. ndak ada yang maksain lo kan?? ini semua kalian sendiri juga udah rencanain kan?? tapi kita semua masih ngalah dan manggut manggut dan hadir pada jam nya! and you have the guts to keep us, MY PARENTS, and even God waiting for 3 hours and then you showed up like nothing happen??

excuse me for being honest and not shook hands... i don't see even a tiny bit reason to celebrate! you can act all you like.. you can kiss everyone's butt.. but i'm not sorry for not swallowing my pride and i don't even care if you notice or not. But i will not just stand there and see you trampling your dirty ugly fat feet all over my parent's!


Forgive me Lord.. but i just can't.. i'm not that strong..
i just can't.. not today...