Birthday Thoughts


feel just like any other day really... except for the non-stop SMS & call that came in during that 24 hours period and even extended to the next day ^__^ I mean really, once you hit 25 and then you still single after that... there's just something you do take for granted.. for me.. my age. I think even when I reached 20.. age was nothing but numbers, and once you're legal in front of the law.. that's it. nothing much..

coz at the time i guess i'm more concern about finding who i really am and what i wanna be.. it took me quite a while.. years in fact of "soul searching" to come to the point of where i am today. other people might think little about it or never thought about it at all, but it was quite a big thing for me.. y'know, to be able to be happy for just being me. i myself never realize that it was important for my peace of mind until i finally got it.

its just something that no amount of money could buy. and its amazing how that "little thing" could change your whole perspective. I'm more confident, more satisfied and just all around happy. I know who i am, i know what i need and don't need, and if other people think otherwise.. i could've care less.

i know people think its very odd of me that in my age i don't think much of finding a boyfriend or husband... the things is, i do want all those "my own family" thing but i don't want to sacrife my own happiness or peace just to get that. It might sounds silly but I've been through quite a long road to reached this point, and i'm not willing to let that go just for the sake of having a boyfriend, plus i don't like that short time period relationship even for just "testing the water". I'm a loyal person, and when i into a relationship, I'm in it for the long term and i give myself 100% in it. conceited? i think not.

Same thing with friends, every relationship is a two-way thing. And where i stand today, when I don't see the other person making any some kind of effort to keep the relationship.. then I stopped making it mine also. I'm just too tired to do it all by myself. I believe that I deserve more, and some other friend could use or need my attention more. So.. like in my last interview she asked me what is my condition or state of mind right now... the first thing that i said to her was, I'm happy.
Then she asked again what do I mean? I said, I'm happy... I'm content being where I am at least for today. It might not be much to other people but I'm happy being who I am, knowing that for a fact that my family loves me & the friends that I have really do care & love me for me.

and that I'm lucky coz compare to other people I have things such as a roof over my head & food on the table, and even more. So in one short simple sentence.. I'm happy and I'm forever thanking God for blessing me with this happiness.

and... I thank you too ^__^


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Btw.. one thing that I found soo hilarious was when 4-5 peeps asked me... so what are you gonna do tonight? Having a "wild" party? when i asked them why they asked me that, they said... well, sho gitu lho..! hahahahaha why oh why do you ask me that minna?? of course I'm having a very wild party with sho! hahahahaha *nuts*



yume no sekai...

I was already asleep before the clock hit midnight... but then Hika-kun woke me up saying that there's a birthday message from Mommy Juju for me. Then when he's back in his room, Sho came and surprised me with.... well, its our secret, needless to say we have our own little wild party that night ^__*

The next day was the usual day except that Junno, Jimmy & Hika prepared a surprised breakfast for me and of course the whole family. It was very sweet of them although I'm quite confuse of what excatly they're cooking... there's friend rice, miso soup & pancakes! Although it was surprisingly good to eat all of them, one by one of course not altogether. I guess its a breakfast that representing this family.. unlikely combination but mix together.. and we're good! although i could use with less the mess they make! those boys must have use every single kitchen utensils available, and stuff seems to be all over the kitchen. thank goodness Sho make sure they do the clean up too... poor boys ^__^

Some flowers were arriving while we're having our breakfast, from Papi Shigeru, my Domoto brothers, Taichi & Yabu, and even my adorable nephew Kohei made the long distance phone call to wish me a quick happy birthday before he has to quickly run for his morning class... I didn't noticed it at first, but when I'm ready to head out for the office, the boys & Sho still busy cleaning the kitchen instead of going to rehearsals or whatever. Turned out Mr. johnny gave them all a day off as my birthday present! Whooaaa... what a surprise! Hmm.. must remember to thank that old man later, but i'm not inviting him over! [sorry johnny-san ^___^]

The dinner party was wonderfully gorgeous! The Sakurai Palace turned out beautiful, for once, white lily & white roses everywhere.. hmmmm kinda reminds me of my wedding day.. Everybody was there.. even my sis and her tomoya baby, and my other sis & mabo! i was totally surprised. i asked them if they're back from korea for good, they said it was only for my birthday plus Junko-chan want to see how her son is doing. Well, I could see that Hika-kun was very happy to see his mommy again. But tomoya baby didn't look too happy.. i guess he found out about his wife quest for that HongKong guy. Mabo seems to be okay too, or maybe because of the constant beer in his hand?

Other than that, most people looks like they're enjoying them self and the BBQ, Sho made the pool area look gorgeous with attaching little lights on the bushes that surrrounding the pool area, and he even puts some candles to flaots in the swimming pool, which turned out to be good thing, coz at a point the youngsters thought it was a brilliant idea to have a night swim after Maru-kun slipped in to the pool, although he said Yabu & Hikaru pushed him! And to make it worst, Papi Shigeru & Kang BunBun join in in the idea! Thank goodness Sho bring order to the what might have been a chaotic time. I can't afford to get all those little kids sick now can I.. especially when Johnny-san has been most kind and Hikaru's mom in town!

After every little bits of food available is vanished from the table [i still wonder how those kids and even my brothers managed to keep their weight in check with the amounts of food they're consume everyday... so far only me & sho had the problem keeping our weights down... hmmmmm] The girls and I do the last bits of cleaning after the hired servants for the party went home. It was kinda nice to able to chat & just share our daily life with my sisters again.. its been a while since the last time we did this.

And the next day, as part of my present, Sho took me for a romantic getaway... Can't tell you all the details though.. let's just say that it was very romantic and "W" from time to time. Lets hope after this Hika's & Sho's wish to have another child in the house is fulfilled!

We got home to an empty house. Turned out Jimmy still want to stay an extra night in Tanaka's house since he still doing a project or something with Yabu-kun. Hika-kun still enjoying his days with his mommy Juju, and Junno also still want to hang around with his brother Koichi. Oh well... I guess the party continue for Sho & I... a very very.. very nice birthday indeed! I hope next year I won't be too busy with a little baby to have another "nice" birthday ^______^


[dou?? cukup insane kan...? hahahahahahaha now go away and don't bother me again about my wild birthday party okay... ......... ................... ...........................

*drag sho to the master bedroom*

hahahahahaha the insanity continue......!!]