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Wednesday, August 13, 2008Y

I'm... back in that black place again.
Feel like shit.
I think it just never really went away the first time.

I'm burnt out.
Tired.
It doesn't matter if I explain it all.
They just either gonna think its because of something else
Or they get it but still do whatever they want anyway.
Where does that left me?

Alone
I guess

Or I am expecting too much all along from this relationship?
Surely there's should be some give and take?
Surely you should put your loyalty where it should...
Or didn't I deserve any of it?

I don't know.
I'm tired of thinking "what if"
I'm tired of blaming myself.
I'm tired of getting the shitty end of it.
I'm tired of being disappointed.
Again.
Everytime.

I walked the extra miles
I gave it more than I really could
But
For nothing.

Am I really that dumb?
DidI really let myself being walk all over?

I'm dead now.
Fell dead.

I'm
Just gonna take a step back..
And look outside the box.
Yeah..
I heard that works.

Yeah..
thanks.

ends at 8/13/2008 07:21:00 PM